Today is August 8th which means I’ll be 30 in exactly 6 months. 3 decades. I never imagined life would go this way- then again, nobody does.
What I’ve realized in the first almost 3 decades of my life, after having been so many different people, and having held a thousand different beliefs-
Is that I’m okay just as I am. We all are.
Whatever you think, believe, feel, say, or act like- no matter how good or bad or right or wrong you or any other human deem these to be- we’re all worthy of a Greater love- evidence of us just being here. People say that God judges, but I think we are the ones who judge. God just loves.
I just want to love myself and others the way I imagine God/whatever you believe in does.
It hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be- maybe because I see myself in everybody. Maybe because I remember that God still finds all of us worthy. And when I think of his infinite beauty, to try and box what he wants or how he wants to be loved, seems like a grave sin. He has already made it clear he wants all of us. We could not be here.
In loving myself I’ve managed to love every human being I’ve so far come across.
I never could fathom I would be the pork-eating, pre-marital fornicating human that I am today. I once prayed 5x a day. For me, the idea of God changed from something I needed to follow, to something I needed to listen to. These days I hear God louder than ever. That nudge to be kind when someone is unkind, to speak up when I need to share my truth, to forgive when I in in my small mind have deemed someone unworthy.
Time and technology will reveal increasing opportunity to help the world and the people in it. As you align with your purpose you’ll realize that the very things that disturb you are meant to be your contribution to the world. But You will always be more successful in helping humanity when it comes from a place of love and not fear or hate. Martin Luther King said, “You have very little morally persuasive power with people who can feel your underlying contempt.”
If you want to help somebody, love them. Then help them. But never stop loving them. The love is what makes the change possible.